You’d never know the worst part

She feels totally invisible when with people

The bond of mutual relationship she seeks for  

The kind of encouragement she longs for

The feelings of being cherished she’s dying to gain

Never had one in her life

Nothing seems complete

 

Why do I have to listen to you

When I’ve actually fed up with those heartbreaking stories

Why do I always feel obliged to protect you

When my heart is bleeding silently either

 

Coz I am a super friend

I should always be there when you need me to

I am chosen to chase everybody’s sorrows away

I would show up when you call me

Deprived of my own expression of likes or dislikes

 

Why are you always so means to me

When you wear smiling faces to others

Why can’t you show a little bit approval

When I tried so hard to satisfy you

 

Coz I am a super kid

I wouldn’t feel a thing when blamed for something I didn’t mean to

I shouldn’t get frustrated for those silly criticism or ignorance

I should take it easy

And just laugh about it

 

Why am I the one to play cool

When tears keep pouring inside of me

Why can’t you read the desperation in my eyes

When I am seeking sort of affection or simply comforting

 

Coz I am a super girl

I’ve got an unbreakable heart

I could still stand up even when hurt badly

I am the one to say something sweet to others

And know that I can’t ask for too much

 

I put my trust in whomever smiles at me

Even it’s once in a million times

In times I am just

On the verge of freaking out

So do push me so hard

To speed it up before I crash and burn

Since I am going to hell anyway

 

 

Dear sis, I need a hug...

Rhapsodize: Baby fragile has been hurt by someone else

                   Who always left a trail of broken hearts behind

                   Wherever she went

                   I guess I would get a harp like Jupiter to cure my baby fragile

 

Every time you whisper my name under the marmalade sky

  As if dreaming something wild

    You make me feel like a child

       Who can’t get enough of your overwhelming smile

          Tell me, how could you suppose to survive

            Through the nightmares of no one behind 

               Tonight my lips’ve got you nowhere to hide

 

 

                 It fakes to play nice

                    When I couldn’t catch your eyes

                        For I would rather die to be your sunshine

 

So baby fragile

Free your heart this time

When love is spilling over in the air

Why not stop torturing my mind

Just be my valentine

 

 

Every time you walk me in the tender rain

As if wandering in dreamland   

I can't help gently blowing away      

The tiny rain drops on your sparkling eyelashes        

Tell me, when will you stop wondering someday           

You could stand another pain-taking mistake              

Or you simply need a reason to stay                   

 

 

It hurts to pretend                   

Sooner or later, I’ll be driven mad                      

For I desire more than just holding hands                        

 

So baby fragile

Follow the rhythm of fate

When love is beating so hard

Why not enjoy moments when words pale

Just kiss me to hell

 

 

 

 

 

     下次还有其他篇章,这只是一个开端而已. 

      练得汗津津、累到晕乎乎、乐到笑嘻嘻的两个月魔鬼训练终于结束了.体重似乎没有变轻，反而还重了……但有三个密友说瘦了，我还是非常开心的~不过明天约好和小Rain去吃巴西烧烤，估计要前功尽弃了.唉，实在是难以抵挡每天练到半死不活之后搭电梯途中那张画有一个油头马面的巴西人和各种烤肉的海报的诱惑. I am tempted. I am hooked. I am captured. 怎么说都好啦.

     突然每天下午或是晚上不再背着个包跑去健身，觉得好空虚. 真的是非常舍不得这一段时光啊，虽然有些项目整个像是在搞自虐. 天天，我们在操房里举小杠铃，打小格斗，跳小街舞，扔小杠铃片，练小平衡，玩小舍宾……最后的几个星期还小搞一下“活力四射”. 虽然每天回到家衣服里可以揪出一盆子水，膝盖累到完全不能伸直，手臂拉伤到完全没力，食量达到从大到巨大的飞越……这些都没有减少我的激情，我依然觉得很快乐，依然很畅快地享受着汗水与疼痛. 尤其是最开始一段时间，身体承受了太多，想法就少了很多，只有很单纯很原始地满足感.

    另一个小变化是，现在我疯狂迷上了打击乐，因为运动的背景音乐都是很动感很劲爆的，先在听到还会不自主想跳起来.    

    当然，我舍不得的还有美丽田园的那帮教练.

 

 

 

      

 

      本来还想跟小Rain同学合张影的，怎么说咱们在一起玩了两个月了.可是她死活不愿意，只是坚持穿着她的野人装帮我照相，有几张照片在镜子里还可以看到她的造型. 谢谢你啊，小Rain同学，你说，明年的我们还可以再在一起玩吗. 还是你曾说过的，Seize the moment.

      我的暑期生活，真的很愉快，还没离开，我都要舍不得你了，没有原来想象的疯狂与热烈，没有构想的外出与旅行，没有肆意的放纵与颓败，只是很安静地在夏日骄阳里猛烈地闪烁一阵，又安静地趋于平滑.就像是探戈，舞步回转，改变生活的姿态. 我享受的姿态.

 

今天我又去到了久违的外婆家，和许多的亲人一起，祭拜亡灵。烧包是在七一四的鬼节上不可缺少的环节。和亲人们一起，我度过了难忘的一天。

 

外公的猫

 

这是一只灰色条纹的猫咪，通体毛茸茸的，右耳总是不自觉地耷拉下来，遮住眼睛。那样子真是可爱极了。它的名字叫“猫几咪”。但只有外公叫它的时候它才会答应。外公对它的好那是没说的，总是跑到鱼塘里抓小鱼给它吃，还喂它上好的鱼肉。大家坐在走廊里吃西瓜的时候，它就一直站在屋檐下的高墙上望着我们，却又不肯下来。外公说这是因为它怕人多。由于它很调皮的缘故，外公以前白天的时候一直把它关在抽屉里。现在想起小时候外公外婆总叫我“花脚猫”，因为我总爱走街串巷，跑到别人家、果园里、田埂上、山上到处去玩。这名字大概也来源于猫咪天生爱走动吧。

但看到眼前的这只小猫咪，不禁让我想起了外公从前养的那只肥嘟嘟的黄猫咪。它更加爱出去瞎逛了，这时外公总会一个人出去找它，有时还能提着它的耳朵把它拧回家。但直到去年的某一天，它出去后再也没有回来。外公为此难过了许久。

亲爱的猫小咪，别再出走让外公担心了，他现在只和你相依为命了。

 

舅舅的宝贝

 

我想叫他小鹿，因为我不知道他的大名，他也没有小名。小鹿刚被抱来的时候由于没睡醒一直在哭，一看到我，立即不哭了，扭过小脑袋过来看我，双眼睁得老圆老圆（当然我确实是在做鬼脸）。然后我就一副“你再看，再看我就把你吃掉”的表情瞪着他，最后他居然爬到我身上来要我抱。小宝贝的肚子软软的，小手和小脚也都肥嘟嘟的，小脸粉嫩粉嫩，抱起来像是一个枕头，很舒服。虽然那小家伙把口水都蹭我身上了。

抱过小鹿很长一段时间后我的手上还有浓浓的奶香味，他真是特别可爱。

小鹿的爸爸是我的亮亮舅舅，据说特有来头，虽然长得一副斯斯文文的样子，居然黑白两道都打得通。我是在去年的葬礼上才第一次见到他，他对家里人都特别的好。在此之前我还从没见过外婆家这边有长得这么帅的舅舅，简直是一表人才，结果居然是混黑道的。还开着一辆亮黄色的跑车，有一个叫他“亮哥”的漂亮老婆，戴着一副黑色细框眼镜，穿着一双彪马的拖鞋走在田间，真是非常不一样。

 

乡村少年历险记

 

说到祭祀，我又陷入了回忆当中。

大概是十年前，我第一次去到深山里的苏平舅舅家玩。一进他家后花园就看到有人在搞“迷信活动”。后来晓得那是我舅舅的小儿子，我的奇哥哥，他一个人跪在一抔小土堆上，又点蜡烛又作揖，他身边还有一只褐色小田园犬（其实就是土狗）。走近一问，他说是在祭拜舅爷爷，说着拉着我一起跪。但也许是时间太久，记忆紊乱了，我明明记得那时舅爷爷还在……总之搞得有够神秘的，那个时候。

后来他带着我和小狗到田埂上玩耍。那是很难得的一番景致，深山里还有那样开阔的视野，金黄色和翠绿色的麦田相互交错，梯田很完美地滑落出流畅的线条。

我很兴奋地沿着田埂跑，把奇哥哥落得在身后好远。突然不知怎么回事，一团毛茸茸的家伙将我扑倒，我摔到了麦田里。当时吓得不轻。回过神才看清是那只田园犬趴倒在我身上，但样子很凶恶。不对，它比奇哥哥的狗要大好多，虽然长得一模一样。

“你是谁。”我坐起来，然后看见一个翩翩少年。手里拿着锄刀，扛在肩上，白色上衣没有系扣子，脸上汗水盈盈的样子。

“是阳阳，”奇哥哥从后面追赶上来，气喘吁吁地说，“嫚娥姨的女。”

那个锄刀少年立马从田埂上跳下来拉我起来，“我是你龙哥哥。”原来是苏平舅舅的大儿子。那只大的田园犬是他的。

就像所有故事里一样，哥哥勤奋努力，脚踏实地。弟弟成天游手好闲，吊儿郎当。龙哥哥成天帮家里做农活，为人腼腆内向；奇哥哥成天搞些奇奇怪怪的事情（诸如先前的祭祀轰动），整个一不实青年。而我呢，是这些小辈们中唯一的女孩子，集万千宠爱于一身，凡事都被别人让着，疼着，成天就是一只花脚猫到处乱窜。即使是这样，我们三个在乡下还是度过了一段有趣的时光。

初夏的时候我们跑到山里去采映山红，抱着火红火红的花儿照相。或者摘野草莓，常常争抢着吃到满嘴通红。盛夏的时候我们用自己做的鱼竿跑到河塘里吊小鱼虾。或者从塘里捞菱角吃。仲夏的时候我们跑到别人家的桃树园子里偷桃子吃……

遗憾的是不知为什么夏天快要结束的那段时间，龙哥哥突然对我很冷淡，不理不睬。奇哥哥依然像从前那样宠着我，带着我瞎玩。一直到夏天结束。

而现在，乡村的少年们都长大了，田埂上没有了他们的身影。我的童年色彩，也由此淡去。

 

回到外婆家，依然很开心，却少了许多期待与情愫。这个秋天，我真的要卷着铺盖走人了。放假的时候我就可以一个人回来，虽然和原先计划的不太一样，少了一个人的守候。我依然不确定自己有没有调整过来，有时还是会莫名其妙的低落。但只要前方还有一条小径，我就要穿越荆棘，一直走下去。

 

Strawberry Fields Forever 献给我亲爱的外婆

Strawberry Fields Forever

Strawberry Fields Forever

 

I need you no more.

Sometimes, however, they say words like that actually means" I cannot live without you."

Anyway I am not going to pretend to be a a wise girl. When I said it, I trully meant it. 

I intended to be a life-long friend or family for you. But now, I just cannot stand the situation any longer.

 

I care about you no more, at least I decide to.

For you didn't care about me from the very beginning, which I finally understand after all these years wandering along the roads towards home all alone. 

You look like a sparkling star around him or her for they are the ones you love.

"We are close." shouldn't be your excuse to frustrate me.

 

You may not even find out I have been acting like someone else for the recent months. And you will never.

I have been fed up with it every time you turned to me for your untold secrets so as to release yourself and turned your back to me when I've got somthing special for me to tell.

Though I've got used to your indifference, isn't it sad for me to tell my own stories and sing my own songs all these years?

 

Thank God we will not be in the same city in the near fiture. You are so brilliant and I am so kind of what, average may be the right word. You have reminded me of that many times.

I do wish the distance and mere advance of time could cure the wounds of bad memories.

You know it's pretty precious to keep a relationship of 17 years or even longer.

But it's you who didn't appreciate the gift and lost my faith in you in the first place.

Of course, it's not important for you to win my friendship. So will I.

 

I am so sorry that the memories I should have cherished all my life are fading away.

I wrote this so you can see I cannot let it go easily. I hate a sentimental me.

I wrote this with the hope that I will feel at ease the next time I read it.

Best wishes for you, and take care.

 

    这是小猪13岁生日的时候在贺龙体育广场上照的.你瞧,日期都是03年10月7号.如果没记错,大概是前一天在搞月考,所以晚了一天大家才跑出来玩.但是几个月前我才把它洗出来. 如果不是某人一定要的话,也许永远不打算洗了.瞧,大家那时候多小啊,

最后,我要每人说一句话.

   

    桃子同学,你现在应该正坐在飞机上,穿越云霄吧.我站在地上默默为你祝福,希望一年后的我们都已经实现了各自的梦想.珍重千万.

   

    照片上的两人是Kid和Sharon.站在摩天轮前面拍的.Sharon这家伙现在过得那叫逍遥,整天和人跑去游泳约会.我不管啦,把你约会名单上的人全部划掉也好,哪天也陪我去游泳啊.由于桃子要离开,我们班那一群家伙聚到了一起.于是我和Sharon两个点歌总被切的小可怜跟桃子告了别之后,就先离开了.离开之前还满足了Sharon小小的愿望:和她的小SPY留影.两人都很开心的样子.然后我们就跑道广场上照相.不知道这样和她嬉笑打闹的日子还有多少呢.其实你走了以后,我已经努力学会自己一个人做许多事情了.而对于我们班呢,可能也是最后一次作为一个班搞聚会了,如果分班的事情是真的.亲爱的们,虽然总感觉自己和这个班格格不入,但此刻却又比任何时候更喜欢你们,不愿分别.

 

    这个学期又过去了,在这里想特别感谢我们班道貌岸然三人组:班长悦,龚龚,小Mon.如果你们看得到的话.谢谢那天你们陪我在操场上走的那一圈,真的很让我感动.本来哭泣的我,最后却笑了.其实我又何尝不羡慕你们三个呢,看你们走在跑道上,谈天说笑,互相打趣.我会望着你们漫步的方向微笑,然后视野模糊,因为我仿佛又看到了跑道上已经消失了的背影,也是那样的三个,分明就是当年的狗狗,Sharon,和Kid.

   

    还要感谢坐在前面的赵姓同学.很抱歉让你跑了许多地方帮我找一个一样的水壶.看你用手机拍下我水壶的认真样子,真是很抱歉.都怪我太爱哭了,对不起.再感谢小弟,感谢你又真的说到做到,帮我找到了有吸管的水壶.虽然你会遇到许多不开心的事情,但还总是想着别人.抱歉我总是对你发脾气.对了,我的小猪Jerry由于我在考试期间疏于照顾,不幸夭折了.希望你的小猪能够免遭换电池的危险.还要感谢我的熊.在过马路时会牵着我的手的女孩子.我一向不太喜欢像其他女生那样走路牵手的亲昵,但被你小小的手握着的时候我感觉很温暖.尤其是在我最低落的那一段时间里,更显弥足珍贵......

 

 

    今天Kid度过了糟糕的一天.

    伽菲猫说"I hate Monday."

    心里好像下了一整天的雨.

    大概是因为昨天弄了一个下午和晚上还是没有使剧情让自己满意.期间将一大杯Charcoal coffee打翻,将拖鞋扔出去两次,在阳台上歇斯底里地大叫,还很没好气的挂了两个朋友的电话.

    可是,我还是完成不了,我做不好,我做不到,真的赶不上了. 这种想法让我绝望极了.许多事情堆积在一起神经好像要被撕扯开来.没有一件事让我开心.

    整天在构思,却没有任何进展. 下午的时候情况一点也没有好转.生物课被老师点起来回答问题,关于水分在植物体内的运输和散失.不记得自己说了什么,坐下来之后居然还是忍不住哭了.

    上体育课的时候突然想起以前一上体育课就会对狗狗唱:She loves you yeah yeah yeah...但现在...于是我抓着Sharon和鼹鼠一起来到操场中央,然后放声歌唱.大家一起唱起来.我执意要大家一起把右手举起来跳舞,被她们两个家伙给扯了下来.

    晚饭的时候我们坐在靠窗的位置.不想被大家看穿自己的心情,于是拼命地讲自己喜欢在洗澡的时候唱歌,唱了半天发现还没有弄洗发水让.Sarah和Wendy都笑得吃不下去了.说着说着,眼睛又潮湿了,眼泪掉下来.太好笑了.

    去上物理课的路上,Sharon跟我说了许多从前不常说的话.谢谢你,不过,我想我还需要一段时间,先在前方等着我吧,我会努力追上来的.

    上完课后,终于还是一个人坐车回家.记得以前在车站我总是说一个人回家会很凄凉,以此来要求朋友陪自己搭同一辆车.可现在,周围总算只有自己一个了,可以不用伪装认真地哭泣了.坐在公共汽车上,看着路灯投射的光亮忽明忽暗,感觉城市夜晚的悲伤全都在这里了.

    下车的时候,看见妈妈在那一盏熟悉的路灯下拿着披肩等我,于是我跑上前去抱她.突然什么也不想再想,随它去吧.少现在我在妈妈温暖的怀抱里,明天再为明天烦恼吧,现在,请让我休息一会儿,就一会儿......

Is There Life On Earth?

 

Whether there is life on earth has been long considered as an important research for Venusian. Recently, as for the first time signals and photographs have been sent back by the satellite from the earth, excited Venusians have got some valuable information to support their former standpoints. As far as Venusian scientists are carefully concerned, they draws a conclusion that there is no life on earth. For one thing, the photographs indicates that the earth’s surface is composed of solid concrete, which is unfit for plant growing. For another, the atmosphere of the earth is filled with carbon monoxide and other deadly gases that makes it impossible for people to breath there. Also,the scientists add,that they found the Consolidated Edison Belt which may be the biggest trouble for their further research. Last but not least, the waters there are seriously polluted with chemicals. Being base on those factors, the Venusian scientists finally believe that their conclusion is correct without doubts.

杀：“终于到了狗狗的时间了”
邪见：“杀生丸开始了！！”
玲：“不知道什么四魂之碎片”
杀：“用斗鬼神打到奈落”
邪：“虽然在镜中梦幻城里没出场，可是这次的电影里大展风采， 哦～～杀生丸大人在燃烧了～～”
杀：“玲、阿哞、邪见、人头杖”
玲：“穿越时空，战国时代的童话故事”
一起：“杀生丸！！”

邪：我们的前方 ...
杀：喂！
邪： 有着什么....
杀：邪见！
邪：勇敢地向前走！
杀（气愤的痛扁）打！
邪：啊~~~~~~
邪：怎，怎么了？杀生丸少爷？
杀：走了，邪见。